And honestly my heart isn't in it.
I'm feeling rather directionless right now.
I stood in the shower after finishing the race and decided that I really didn't like running half marathons. I mean, I'd run a few of them, but they are all training for this race.
I did it! I actually finished a Disney race.
And all of a sudden, I didn't want to do it anymore. Do I want to stop running? I don't think so. But I think the most I'll attempt is a 10K.
This entire vacation was the culmination of three years of training, saving and planning.
We had an amazing time while we were there! Disney is such a magical place. It really is a place where the problems of home don't really matter.
I didn't want to leave.
And honestly, I came back a little depressed. I have lost all will to eat right and exercise. I'm eating junk and sleeping in and I know that I'm better than that.
While I was there, I lived all of my dreams.
Now I need to make new dreams. And that is a rather daunting task! What is my new dream? I must admit, I did look on the Disney website to see if my dream job was there. (It's not, at least I don't think it is.)
For right now, I'm settling on starting some savings. I want to go back for my birthday some year.
But for now, I need to get back on the exercise wagon. I need to cut back my spending so I can save for our next trip. And I need to get back to my life.
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