I'm sick and tired of being sick!

Remember that lovely flu that I got for Christmas?

Well I have something again.

Sinus issues.  Horrible headache.  And the inside of my throat and inside of my ears itch.  Yes.  Itch.  And it's not allergies.  Other people in the office are sick like I am.  

Basically, I feel like warmed over death.  But not death-y enough to stay home.  (though itchy sinuses and the like should be against the Geneva Convention)

All of this feeling crappy-ness is doing nothing for my whole getting healthy plan.  I haven't felt up to exercising.  The severe headache hinders the desire to move.  So at this point I'm abandoning all hope of this DietBet.  I have a new goal.

1 pound.

That's it.  Just lose 1 pound this week.

With my complete non-desire to exercise, this may be difficult.  Especially since all I want out of life, is a pint of Ben and Jerry's.

Something's in the Air

It's been in the air all day!

And it's not the sudden, and violent, thunderstorm that just blew through.

All day I've felt like something terrible is about to happen.  Now, I had no looming deadlines or medical test results expected.  No appointments were happening.

But I got to work and had issues remembering what I was doing.  And I would forget how to read for seconds at a time.  This is always a pre-cursor to a panic attack.

Of course it didn't help that today was a busy day that involved running around between floors and buildings.  Literal running at times.   I catered a lunch (eating a cookie that I didn't need in the process, bad me!), I put out various fires and a fiddled with the fall schedule.


I'm rather excited that the other half is going out tonight and not taking me.  I think I need a night of mindless TV and a puppy on my lap.

Though I am a little upset that the Figure Skating competition is over.  I'll be missing my Johnny Weir outfits!

Tax Return Season

It's that time again.  To responsibly spend our tax returns!

Have you done your taxes yet?

I have!

The earlier that you do them, the faster you get your money back!

So what did I do with my refund?

I paid off bills.  My credit cards now have $0 balances.  The water bill at the former place is gone.  My savings accounts have some cash in them.

Then I bought some things for myself:

I went to Food Ireland and got some mixes.  They were sold out of the mix that I wanted, a fact that wasn't clear until after I submitted my order.  But I did get some things to try.
I got some bread mixes and a scone mix.






Then I went to Amazon (since it was sold out on foodireland.com) and did some Call the Midwife inspired shopping.

That's right.  I had to buy some Horlicks.

I'm still waiting for that one to come in the mail.

Seriously... more snow??

I got up this morning and it was 23 degrees out.  It's supposed to snow later.

I was going to go out running.....

And decided to play Just dance instead.

Even Misty decided that outside wasn't for her, and dug herself a blanket-fort!

I'm participating in a Diet Bet, and I'm actually wanting to make this damn Weight Watchers 10% goal....

But I have no motivation to exercise.

I blame the weather.

I know it's going to be hard this weekend.  Valentine's day is Friday. That means that on Saturday all the candy goes on clearance.  And y'all know how much I love chocolate.

But, needless to say, I have a severe case of the winter doldrums.  Besides sitting on the couch in a cocoon of blankets, nothing is interesting me.  I follow vlogs of people in far off places and dream of travelling.  (I'm loving Sharla in Japan and Rachel and Jun)

According to weather.com it's supposed to warm up.  Let's hope that snaps me out of this funk!

Blow, Blow Thou Winter Wind

I was curled up on my couch, under a blanket when I started thinking.  I decided that I really didn't want to go to choir practice on Thursday.  Thinking about it, I decided I didn't want to go to church anymore.  After more thought, I decided I didn't want to go to work anymore.

Then I stopped and shook my head a bit.

I don't really think that becoming a hermit is the answer.  I don't think it's even what I really want.

The real issue is winter.  (With a HUGE dash of social anxiety thrown in)

It's been cold.  And not just cold.  Bone-rattling cold.  I simply don't want to leave the cocoon of blankets on my couch.

I simply need to not cut myself off from life.  And this is why:

When I start to give into that desire to hibernate, I start to convince myself of things that simply aren't true.  All of my friends really don't want to spend time with me.  I'm horrible at my job.  My house will burn down while I'm gone.

If I manage to stay away from things long enough, I don't quite know how to go back.  The thought of changing churches goes though my mind every time I miss more than a few Sunday services.  Why?  Because I'm afraid of what made up things I think people are saying about me.  By the time I walk though the door I have had multiple fake conversations in my head that have no basis in reality, but make me want to run screaming.

So this weekend I invited people over.  We made plans to go to church.  And I'm trying not to have fake conversations in my head.

But I still kinda want to be in the cocoon of blankets on the couch.

Back on the wagon

It's no secret that it's been cold around here.  That cold has zapped my desire to work out.

Is it a winter thing?  It's too cold to think, let alone exercise?

Even this face couldn't get me out from my cocoon of blankets.  (This is the "I have to go pee!!!!" stare)

This week is warmer.  And I need to get motivated.

How?

Aren't they cute????

Well, I joined a Diet Bet.  Financial motivation to actually get off my butt and not eat chocolate.

I'm not the only one that is having issues finding motivation.

I went out an ran this morning.  I downloaded a new app, this time a 10K.  Why?  Because someday I want to go to Disney and run the Princess Half Marathon.

I also got some Barre workout DVD's, let's see if I can use them.

Ok folks, here's my plan:

Monday, Wednesday, Friday:  running
Tuesday, Thursday, Saturday:  Barre workout.

We'll meet up here on Sunday to see how I did!

(And if you want to, join the Diet Bet!  We'll motivate each other!)