Depression....

I'm completely blaming this week by the re-emergence of the placebo pills in my pack... so the feelings will pass.

But I've been feeling off all week. I'm tired. So incredibly tired. I'm not overly hungry... I eat mainly to give my mouth something to do.... I'm on the verge of tears for no reason...

And now I have to help plan a baby shower.

Let me give you my background with babies. I don't want them. I feel uncomfortable around them. I know, I'm betraying my gender by saying this, but I'm not the mother type. I can't handle my own dog! (it's her that's in the profile pic).

I have 2 pregnant friends, one friend that is almost ready to pop and 2 friends with kids. They get together and talk about baby things and set up play dates.

It leaves me feeling cold and alone. For just being who I am.