Lost...

I used to have purpose in my life. I was going to teach, then have a family.

That didn't work out too well.

Now, my life just has no purpose. I'm a temporary employee. Any minute now the job I'm doing might dry up and go away, leaving me pennyless. I've applied to over 20 jobs a week, every week, for the last year and a half. I've had dozens of interviews (only some of which got back to me telling me that I didn't get the job). Nothing.

I'm thankful that I'm working now.... but I'm waiting for that shoe to drop... and it will... I just live in panic as to when.

So Now I look for a new path in life. I've got skills that would be useful to a great number of employers... but no.. they don't want me.

So I wait. And pray. And try not to lose hope. I don't have much hope left.... every rejection letter erodes it a little.

Winning the lottery would be nice....