Mawwiage

For ages, the Spousal Equivalent and I declared that we didn't want or need to be married.

Then 2 things happened

1. I realized that I'm getting older.
2. We have WAY too much stuff for the house that we have.

Because marriage gets you benefits when it comes to end of life and medical decisions... and the need of a mortgage.. we decided to get married.

Shocking, right?

So we got ourselves a license.  A friend performed the ceremony.  This is shorter than it was, but not by much.

And honestly, that's how we wanted it.  We've been together for 10 years.  We live our marriage every day.  We don't need a white dress or a church.

We're still having a wedding reception.  But that'll be at a later date.  Have you been to Virginia in the summer?  it's hot!

It's nice to have some hobbies.

When I was in High School I was a musical theater kid.  I performed both on stage and worked back stage.

College came, and I moved my work to the backstage region.  I was good at it too.

But in the last few years, I came to realize that I have absolutely no hobbies.  I work, I come home, I cook dinner and clean, I go to bed.

So I decided to get a hobby!  I started vocal lessons!  I get to sing show tunes for an hour a week.  For the first time in ages, I look forward to something!  I have something that gets me out of the house after work.

But with everything in my life, there is also guilt.  At times  feel guilty that I'm out of the house and not home cleaning.  I feel guilty that I'm not spending my time taking care of my family.

But then I realize that you can't pour from an empty cup.  My life doesn't need to revolve around what I should be doing.  I'm allowed to do things for me once in a while.

In fact, I'm going to be in a show in September.  Wish me luck!

Thank goodness it's over.

I've had a few things go on in the last month.

• Commencement
• Some weird health issues

Commencement is the same issues every year.  It's 2 hours of herding cats, then a speed through to the finish.

This year Mother Nature had another plan.  We had to call the Rain Plan, since our ceremony was under a tent.

That meant that we were moved to a gym.  A big echo-y gym.  We rolled in at 3 and had an hour to figure out how we were going to run things.  

By the grace of some deity, we did it.  All the students got their diplomas.  The refreshments were eaten.  Sadly, we ran out of cups for the beverages.

That was my capper to a weird month, which started with a pounding heart.

A few weeks before we were getting ready to go to Busch Gardens.  The excision of putting on my damn pants caused my heart to pound.  Like, I had to lay down.  I assumed it was a panic attack, since panic attacks mimic heart attacks.

It wasn't just that.  I wear an Apple Watch and noticed that my heart-rate was running a little high.

After going to the gynecologist and having my blood pressure super high it was decided that I needed a talk with my primary doctor.  I was prescribed the following:

• a new blood pressure med
• changing my diet
• exercise
• lower my stress

The exercise is going well.  The new medication is going well.  The diet and exercise are still a work in progress.  We're putting some effort in the healthy eating!

The de-stressing is going to take some work.

Sleeping In

It's Spring Break at work.   And even though I don't actually get the sacred college holiday off, I decided to use a vacation day today.

I slept in and went out to get breakfast.

And I felt guilty.

Why?  Because I took one of my rightfully earned vacation days.  heck, I didn't take a vacation day. I'm taking leave I earned by working overtime!

I felt guilty for not being at work.  And I'm not alone.  Before carefully busting my behind to leave work knowing that I don't have any pressing deadlines, I asked for a day off.  My Department Chair enthusiastically granted it.

For some reason, Americans have been taught to work until they fall over from exhaustion.  We're made to believe that taking the time off that we've been granted makes us less productive and somehow less than in our boss's eyes.  There are studies about it.  There are also theories.  But at this point it's so ingrained in our culture, it's hard to get around.

So now that we've established that I geel guilty for taking time off.  What am I doing?  Shopping?  Going to a museum?  Going out to lunch?

Nope.

Dishes.

Laundry

and taking out the trash.

Well, we all have to start somewhere.

Rent: Not Quite Live....

from PopCrush

(This may be edited when I watch it again)

Rent... I've been waiting for it for years.

I had my snacks all ready when I saw those little words at the bottom of the screen:  Previously Recorded.

What?

The internet told me what happened.  Brennin Hunt's foot was broken during last 10 minutes of Saturday's Dress Rehearsal.  The one they record as both a rehearsal and a back up recording.  Sadly, the back up now became the show.

The live audience saw views like this:

You wish you could see this version! @RENTonFOX #RentLive pic.twitter.com/HhEbHnN3HB

— Alison Young (@Foreverayoung) January 28, 2019

Before I get into anything else, I think the biggest regret is that the cast won't be able to give the performance they intended to give.  Some of the vocals weren't there, and I wonder if it wasn't because some of the performers were "saving it" for Sunday night.  We'll never know.

I know... forget regret and all... but I regret us not being able to see their finished product.   #RENTLive

— Meari (@DaneeneMeari) January 28, 2019

My #RENTLive thoughts: @Jordan_Fisher is amazing.  Cast him in everything please?

The audience is WAY too loud.  But I’m assuming they never thought they’d be broadcast.

Valentina was out of breath while singing.  Cardio, my dear...

And Roger’s broken ankle... suck!

— Meari (@DaneeneMeari) January 28, 2019

As per usual... I live tweeted the whole damn thing!

The vocals seemed to be rather shaky.  Especially Valentina's  Like seriously.. it was bad.

Roger and Mark are about the only ones hitting their notes!  #RENTLive pic.twitter.com/mAMhfiJsp3

— Meari (@DaneeneMeari) January 28, 2019

Jordan Fisher was spot on in all aspects.  He's a good actor and a fantastic singer.  Brennin Hunt was there vocally, but the acting wasn't.  The show starts with them, so it had to be good, and it was.

People noticed some lyric changes right off the top.  They specifically set it in 1991/1992, which is a nice thing for the younger audience that might not understand the AIDS Crisis of the 80's and 90's.  The show portrays the found families that many LGBTIQ folks of that era had (mainly because they were kicked out by their bio families for being themselves.  And I think younger people today forget that AIDS back then was a death sentence.  By naming the specific time, you remind people of the grim time in NYC this was.

But man, the opening number was electric... then Today For You came on.

I figured it out.  Most of Angel’s songs are sitting right on Valentina’s voice break.  I know the pain!  (She needed more vocal coaching to get around it)  #RENTLive

— Meari (@DaneeneMeari) January 28, 2019

Valentina's vocals were there during the soft parts, but her big number was.... odd.  I was especially wondering if she was saving her voice.  I think she could have done with some intense vocal coaching.  The performance was almost there!

So the show goes on... and then we get Maureen (Get it?  brown Cow Stunning?)

Bravo Vanessa Hudgens  #RENTLive pic.twitter.com/LCjNSim2In

— Meari (@DaneeneMeari) January 28, 2019

She definitely didn't phone it in for the rehearsal!!

I mean, Maureen and Joanne were amazing!

Take me or Leave me!   #RENTLive pic.twitter.com/G5Abbrqbhx

— Meari (@DaneeneMeari) January 28, 2019

As I watched, Twitter would explode if they changed lyrics, or did anything out of the norm for the show...

Controversial opinion:  I rather liked that staging of Seasons if Love! #RENTLive pic.twitter.com/3woXGViKEq

— Meari (@DaneeneMeari) January 28, 2019

But I loved staging, and the set.  When you have the advantage of cameras, you can use some inventive staging!

Did anyone notice Roger's costume change just before contact?  In the musical beds scene?  Where he is in a rob and takes Angel's place in the hospital bed?  Were they implying that he was hospitalized for a bit?

The second half picked up, then we got to Contact.  I'm SHOCKED they let it go on!  (Network TV and all...)

Then we got to the Cover You Reprise.. And Brandon Victor Dixon brought us to church.

Damn @BrandonVDixon!  Your Judas made me cry last year... now your Tom Collins is devastating me! #RENTLive pic.twitter.com/WgKlbwJGaA

— Meari (@DaneeneMeari) January 28, 2019

Which then led us to this moment:

And then @Jordan_Fisher is able to do this?????? COME ON Y'ALL. THE. TALENT. #RENT #RentLive pic.twitter.com/uhXEJIhkVE

— broadway.com (@broadwaycom) January 28, 2019

(hear that?  it was my hear breaking)

But honestly, this sums it up:

Ok y’all...@BrandonVDixon , @Jordan_Fisher and @VanessaHudgens are national treasure.  Cast them in all the musicals please!!!  #RENTLive

— Meari (@DaneeneMeari) January 28, 2019

The show was uneven.  It was a show that no one expected would be seen by everyone.  It's the show that we got.

And I enjoyed it!

Now NBC and Hair... get some darn understudies!!!!

Getting my sh*t in order!

How many people are making that resolution to get into shape?

Like everyone?

I've re-made that resolution myself.  I'm getting winded walking up the stairs.  It's really bad.

I've made these resolutions before, but sadly, I need to do it again.  And I'm publishing this to keep me honest.

1.) Working on my physical fitness.

• I'm starting Transform :20 on the 14th.  It's a 6 week program.  I need to challenge myself not to half-ass my workouts.
• Continue my weekly OrangeTheory class!
• Take the stairs at work!

2.) Get back into running.

• I need to pick a inspirational race.  I need a race to train FOR
• Start running two or three days a week starting in the spring.
• Don't skip my Saturday long runs.

3.) Working on my nutrition (and hopefully my weight)

• Get back into the 2B Mindset eating plan (with a bit of modification to deal with my acid reflux)
• Continue to work on smaller portions, and using smaller dishes to help that.
• Meal plan and eat more meals at home

4.) Working on my spending

• Now that Christmas is over, I need to stop buying stuff!!!  I'm setting a monthly "mad money" budget
• I'm actually deleting my credit card info from some websites, to make it harder!

I know that these are all resolutions, but I do have action steps and outcomes.

Today is January 4th

My Civic Duty

You know this case?

I know it very well.  Because I was on the jury.

It's all public knowledge now.  And it was truly an exhausting experience.

The facts of the case:

• the defendant got higher than a kite, broke into the home of a complete stranger and shot him.  he then faceplanted THROUGH a glass door, fell over a balcony then hid under a car like a 3 year old that is very bad at hide and seek and cried for Jesus.
• The defendant's DNA was all over the house.  His prints were on the gun found on the scene.  The ballistics report said the gun on the scene was the murder weapon.
• In the Commonwealth of Virginia Voluntary Intoxication is no excuse for murder.

I now double and triple check every door and window before I go to sleep at night.  I have nightmares about the video of the body on the floor with the dog jumping around it.  I don't know how I'll handle hearing gunfire.

The defendant's mother apologized to the family of the victim.  I knew if I started crying then, I wouldn't stop.  I came home numb.  Like I'd used all of my emotion for the day.

Folks, don't do drugs.  Especially at the home of someone that you met online and saw in person for the first time that day.  And for heaven's sake, if you are higher than a kite, don't pick up a gun!