You say it's your birthday!!!

Well, today is my birthday!!

So far it's been a great day.  The department got me a $50 Barnes and Noble card to go with the 1st Generation nook that the Spousal Equivalent and the BFF got me!  (I love them!!!!!)

Work has been slow, which gave me plenty of time to get books on the new Nook.

And soon I'll head home, and see if I can buy eggs to make myself a cake.

It's my birthday.  I'm giving myself permission not to feel bad if I don't lose this week's pound.

In other news: I know, I'm trying to lose weight.  I know that losing a pound a week doesn't seem like much, especially since the Biggest Loser folks are going down 20 a week.  But for me, it's enough.  If I'm acting like I'm on a diet, I'll start looking for ice cream.  Instead I'm going to eat sensibly, exercise and strive to drop one pound a week.

Yeah, it'll take me a year to hit my goal.  It'll be next year's birthday present.

That, and new pants.

GleeCap: Hold Onto Sixteen

It's finally sectionals at Glee!

My thoughts, in bullets

• I'm glad that there were 12 members per team.
• The Unitards.... great solo, but that's all it was.
• I agree with New Directions win, based on ABC alone.  It was awesome!!
• I'm unsure about Quinn's change of heart, but since multiple people have verbally given her a smack with the "clue-by-four," it's been a long time coming.
• I'm glad that they only have 1 glee club now, but does that mean Shelby's out of a job?

Christmas next week!

You'd think I'd learn this by now...

... or, Another Case of the Mondays

This morning started with me oversleeping.  There's a mold problem in the bedroom (we're thinking that's leftover from last year's mold problem), and I'm highly allergic to mold.  So every night I drug myself up with Benedryl.  But if I wake up and have to take my inhaler, I'll be up for another hour or so.  That's why I was up from two to almost four this morning.

So on top of being late, I experimented with breakfast.  It failed, and left me without oatmeal.  No problem, I said to myself, I'll just have coffee and take my pills.

You'd think that after the five other times I tried this I would have learned.  If I take the fistful of morning pills (Omega-3, vitamin, allergy pill, birth control and a blood pressure pill) with just coffee it makes be nauseous.  This morning I was nauseous times 10 and actually was sick.  Making me late for work.

I need to learn from my mistakes!!

Sieves catch more than my memory at times!

Yesterday I had a heart to heart with my Spousal Equivalent.  My amazingly bad memory is at the heart of some small issues that keep cropping up.  Seriously.. I wish I had a better memory, but it's rather scary how bad it is.  The SE says I'm all RAM and no hard drive.  It's so true!  How is it that I know all the words to all the songs from every musical  was in.... but I can't remember what day of the week it is?

But in the good news department:  We went grocery shopping and kept it under $50.  Shopping lists are wonderful things!  I have dinners for a week, makings for Birthday cake and a new tree skirt.

Next up, decking our halls!

We all knew it was going to happen sometime..

The sun rose and a new day started.  Yes, I know that it happens every day, but after crying yourself to sleep it still seems like a great feat.

I broke the news to my family that I can't afford Christmas presents, and had to ask for my Christmas money in advance.  That hurt so very much.  I'll be seeing them for the holiday, so that will have to be my gift.  (Though, it hurts.. because I had JUST figured out what to get everyone too!)

I'm not going to be able to afford at $25 small tree, so we're going to dig the big tree out of storage.  It's true, I didn't need a new Christmas tree, because I have a mostly working one already.  It would have been nice.  And it would have saved us from having to re-arrange the living room.  It's ok.  We needed to clean anyways.

We'll make it through.  This weekend we'll make a shopping list, and take an inventory of what we already have.

I think all of this hit me so hard because it plays into my fear of losing my apartment and becoming homeless.

But now I move on.  Tomorrow is another day, and there is enough in my account to pay the rent now.

The cool new Christmas shirts I wanted will have to wait.

I have this love/hate relationship with December

So, my birthday is in a week.  Christmas is a few weeks after that.  What does that mean?  Money.  This time of year always is a huge money suck.

Things happen, and money gets tight.  What happens?  Well in order to make rent this month we had to cancel my birthday celebration, scrap plans to get the $25 Christmas tree and I'm unable to buy Christmas presents this year.

We're hoping to have enough money to get a cake.  I think we can swing it.

But for now, I'm going to go to bed.

51 Weeks Older

In exactly 1 week I'll be 37 years old.

This still seems very strange.  I did the college thing, got married, got a career.

Then in 2009 I lost the marriage and the career.  In essence I'm 25 again, just starting out in life.  I have a new career, and a new relationship.

I may not like the magnitude of the number, but I love my birthday.  It means Christmas is closer!  Unfortunately, with the exception of drinks out with a few friends, I have nothing planned.

Maybe I'll get myself a Christmas tree in honor of my birthday.....