Monday, July 28, 2014

Too many thoughts.

It's been a rough time to be a thinky person.

I mean, between Gaza, Israel, Ukraine, Russia, Ebola in Africa, the erosion of personal rights by the supreme court, the invasion of a church by anti-abortion activists, the multitude of trailers coming out of Comic Con and my complete lack of chocolate in this office....

I'm overwhelmed!!

Now, there is little on that list that is directly related to me.  Except the lack of chocolate.  I can fix that particular problem.

I can't do much about Ebola, or Pro-Russian Separatists, and I can't bring peace to the Middle East.

There's only so much I can do.

I need to remind myself that I can only do what I can do.  I can try to get my household chores done.  I can weed the front yard.  (Anyone want to help me?  It's out of control!!)  I can run.  I can take the puppy on walks.

Things I shouldn't do?  Read the comments on ANYTHING.  And stay up past midnight thinking about all the things in my life that I could have done better.

That never helps anyone.

If you need me, I'll be home, avoiding the news.

Wednesday, July 23, 2014

I only have 3 months

I have 3 months until my first half marathon.

That astonishes me.

And have I been training?  To the best of my ability.

I've also had some crappy runs.  Like 17 minute mile runs.  I decided that the only way to make the crappy run less crappy is to do it over and over again!

Which I have been doing.  I also switched from listening to audio books to music.  Get more pep in the step!

I still don't know what in the world I was thinking signing up for this...

Because we all know that I didn't just sign up for 1 race... I signed up for the challenge... the 5K on Saturday and the half on Sunday.

I'm crazy!

But seriously... I'm doing 2 half marathons this fall... if anyone is in the area, come cheer me on!

Monday, July 7, 2014

I stepped on the scale this morning...

Now, let me admit something:  I've been bad.  It was a holiday weekend and I was bad.

So I decided to see HOW bad.




So this week I need to work!  I'm scheduling my workouts more effectively.  There's supposed to be rain toward the end of the week.  That means I need to front load my runs, and leave the strength training for the end of the week.

All of this on a week where grocery shopping didn't net us much.  Our usual grocery store was rather bare...

This means that I need to head out to a store tomorrow after work.  Blah...

I'm disgusted with myself.  Time to work!

Sunday, July 6, 2014

Can I get a vacation from my long weekend?

Saturday came in wet and cool, so I met a friend to go running.

I now know how out of shape I am!  After 5 miles I limped home.  After a shower we pick up a friend and went thrifting!  We had 2 missions:  shelves and a lamp!  Came home with 3 shelves, a floor lamp and shade and some legos.

We always come home with legos...

After we went back to the BFF's house for a BBQ.  I also picked up the boxes of china that have been in her basement for YEARS:
My grandmother's china.  The pink depression glassware that my Aunt set aside for me and my teacup collection.  Isn't it pretty???

Now I just have to throw a tea party!

Today was more low key.  I HURT from yesterday's run, so I took a bath and did some yoga.

I got injured doing yoga....  I know... it takes talent to injure one's self doing yoga.  Not just yoga!  Beginner's yoga!!

I have talent!

Right now dinner is cooking, and I'm working out a list of chores and workouts for the next week.  My goal for the next week:

Simply to do the list!!

This last week was pathetic how little housework I did!

Ok, off to finish my adult beverage and wait on dinner to cook!

Thursday, July 3, 2014

I need tomorrow to happen... NOW

Last night I looked in the fridge and declared that I didn't need to cook a full meal, as we had lunches for today.  So I put in a frozen pizza.  Like usual, I put a sprinkling of extra cheese on it.

While it cooked, there was an odd smell.  I assumed it was the cake that I had baked yesterday, that some had leaked to the bottom of the oven.


The freshly cooked pizza was green.


I checked the cheese.... not green.  Weird...  The Spousal Equivalent called shenanigans and went out to get Little Caesars.

Fast forward to this morning.  The room was uncharacteristically hot last night.  I woke up feeling ill, so I went for a walk instead of a run.  

After the walk, Misty snuggled up on my lap.  She obviously planned on being there for the long hall.

Tomorrow puppy.  You can have lap time tomorrow.

Monday, June 30, 2014

A Wonderful Visit

Once a year in the summer my mom visits.

Over the years we've visited almost every historic site in the area, so we decided to do something different this time.  This time we:

  • Went to Busch Gardens, to the Food and Wine festival
  • Went to the Roller Derby
We had a good time!

The only dark mark on the trip was a reminder of my mother's age.  She just turned 70 this year.  We talked about who will be the executor of her will, what to do with all of my crap in the basement, who makes decisions on her advanced directive, where the current bills are....

I didn't want to hear that.  Grandpa was 98 when he died.  My mom is going to live forever!

But don't we all think that?

My mom is safely in the Airport, with a magazine.  By 1 she'll be in the air and on her way home.  And it struck me...  I might never see her again.  

And that through hurts.  So very much.

But I'm going to dry my eyes and go on with my day.

Besides... she's going to try to make it for Christmas!

Friday, June 27, 2014


I have now listened to the audio book and watched the unaired pilot... so I feel qualified to talk about:

Delirium, By Lauren Oliver:

The premise is rather out there (from wikipedia):
"The story is set in Portland, Maine, in an alternate present. Civilization is concentrated in those cities which escaped the severe bombings of decades past. Travel between cities is highly restricted. Electric fences separate the city from the Wilds—unregulated territory which was presumably mostly destroyed by bombs.
The totalitarian government teaches that love is a disease, named amor deliria nervosa, commonly referred to as "the deliria". A surgical cure for the deliria has been developed and is mandatory for citizens 18 years old and over. Lena has looked forward to the procedure for years, convinced as she is by the government that love is a horrible disease that must be destroyed from mankind's system."

 What people don't bother to point out that the "cured" adults are cut off from strong emotions.  There's not a lot of compassion.  There's not a lot of caring.  there is a rigid adherence to social order, rules and protocol.

Honestly, it sounds like this "cure" is basically a lobotomy.  Yeah.  I went there.  When the narrator talked about taking scalpel to brain, it convinced me that this must be some sort of super precise lobotomy.

My thoughts on the book:

  1. The prose in the book is AMAZING!  I listened to the book, so it was even better!
  2. The premise is out there... on the surface.  Yes, they want to wipe out the disease of love... but it's more than that.  You can tell that the government is trying to control the population by cutting off passionate emotions, leaving them docile and easy to control.  Looking at it that way makes it more thought provoking.
  3. The book left me with a lot of questions!!!!
  4. I thought the book took place in Portland, OR, not Portland, ME... for like most of the book.  OOPPS!
Then I saw the unaired pilot
 My thoughts:
  1. They did the ENTIRE first book in a 45 minute pilot.  Where do they go from there?
  2. The adults weren't... cut off enough.  Lena described the "cured" as people who were wrapped up, and cut off...  (or something like that).  These adults were... normal....
  3. There were characters from later books in there...  (which didn't disturb me.)
  4. The whole thing was too fast.  You missed the subtly of the government control.  You missed the subtle propaganda.  It came off as one dimensional.  I could have rather seen it built up over the course of a few episodes...  Where you see the breaks in the "perfect" lives that everyone is living.  Like in the book.
But seriously, if you've read the book, go to Hulu and check out the show.  Let me know what you think!